Posts in Experiences
Crossing Over: Pets and the Afterlife

As a past life regression practitioner, I come across many stories of what happens when we transition from this life to another.  The clients I work with recall everything from what it’s like before birth and where our soul goes after and beyond. I should be comfortable with the feeling of losing someone dear to my heart right?  

Well, even those people who facilitate reconnection with past lives, past loves, and past loss can find themselves in the throws of longing when it’s time for their pet’s physical journey to come to an end.

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Psychedelics and Mental Health: A Personal Experience

Since as long as I can remember, I have experienced bouts of moderate to severe anxiety. I try to be transparent about it, because I feel like being up front about my own shit helps other people feel like they can be up front about theirs. Honesty allows for greater connection and stronger relationships.  Sometimes, people that I spend time with at work or at school will ask me how I manage it. I usually respond by explaining that I meditate twice daily, do a full yoga asana practice 6 times per week, and try my best to not take life so seriously. While all of these things are true and have been extremely helpful, I typically leave out the part about how occasionally eating psilocybin mushrooms or going to a trusted friend’s apartment to smoke toad venom out of a crack pipe (sorry mom!) have changed my relationship to anxiety in a way I never thought possible. 

I have always had a strong underlying feeling that I needed a powerful tool to root out the anxiety that was causing me mental harm. I found this tool in psychedelics and entheogens.

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I Got Kicked Out of Vipassana: Psychotic Break or Spiritual Emergency

I entered Vipassana, a 10-day silent meditation course, with the hopes of gaining a renewed sense of clarity, grounding, and calm.  I left halfway through feeling traumatized, fragile, and in a state of paranoia, fear, and dissociation. I felt like I was in between dimensions and not wholly present in this one, the one where I am a woman living in the year 2019 on planet Earth.  I write this nearly two months after leaving the course, and I can tell you that I will never be the same. According to my naturopathic doctor, my nervous system has gone into stress overdrive and survival mode. One thing I have learned from the Vipassana technique is anicca — impermanence, accepting reality as it is.  And as it is, I am rebuilding.  

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