Posts tagged mental health
Psychedelics and Mental Health: A Personal Experience

Since as long as I can remember, I have experienced bouts of moderate to severe anxiety. I try to be transparent about it, because I feel like being up front about my own shit helps other people feel like they can be up front about theirs. Honesty allows for greater connection and stronger relationships.  Sometimes, people that I spend time with at work or at school will ask me how I manage it. I usually respond by explaining that I meditate twice daily, do a full yoga asana practice 6 times per week, and try my best to not take life so seriously. While all of these things are true and have been extremely helpful, I typically leave out the part about how occasionally eating psilocybin mushrooms or going to a trusted friend’s apartment to smoke toad venom out of a crack pipe (sorry mom!) have changed my relationship to anxiety in a way I never thought possible. 

I have always had a strong underlying feeling that I needed a powerful tool to root out the anxiety that was causing me mental harm. I found this tool in psychedelics and entheogens.

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What To Do & Not Do When Your Friend Has Had A Breakdown

Your friend or loved one has had a breakdown.  Maybe they’ve had a depression relapse, or a self harm relapse.  Perhaps an old traumatic memory has surfaced, and they’re going through a dark night of the soul.  Maybe they’re experiencing a spiritual emergency. You may feel the heavy weight of this news and are unsure of where your responsibility lies. You may feel helpless.  Here’s a list of things you can do, and not do, to move through this situation with compassion and effectively support the person you care about. 

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I Got Kicked Out of Vipassana: Psychotic Break or Spiritual Emergency

I entered Vipassana, a 10-day silent meditation course, with the hopes of gaining a renewed sense of clarity, grounding, and calm.  I left halfway through feeling traumatized, fragile, and in a state of paranoia, fear, and dissociation. I felt like I was in between dimensions and not wholly present in this one, the one where I am a woman living in the year 2019 on planet Earth.  I write this nearly two months after leaving the course, and I can tell you that I will never be the same. According to my naturopathic doctor, my nervous system has gone into stress overdrive and survival mode. One thing I have learned from the Vipassana technique is anicca — impermanence, accepting reality as it is.  And as it is, I am rebuilding.  

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