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I Got Kicked Out of Vipassana: Psychotic Break or Spiritual Emergency

I entered Vipassana, a 10-day silent meditation course, with the hopes of gaining a renewed sense of clarity, grounding, and calm.  I left halfway through feeling traumatized, fragile, and in a state of paranoia, fear, and dissociation. I felt like I was in between dimensions and not wholly present in this one, the one where I am a woman living in the year 2019 on planet Earth.  I write this nearly two months after leaving the course, and I can tell you that I will never be the same. According to my naturopathic doctor, my nervous system has gone into stress overdrive and survival mode. One thing I have learned from the Vipassana technique is anicca — impermanence, accepting reality as it is.  And as it is, I am rebuilding.  

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